when the rainy days get to be too much
i hope you look
and see me, us
wrapped in each other’s arms
promising our lives to each other
swirling around almost losing our grip, but
inevitably slamming into the slick pavement
together, alas
in the rainbow that follows.
when the rainy days get to be too much i look and i see you.
I just don’t understand.
i feel like a black hole, incapable of holding any light.
every smile, every laugh
desperately trying to erase the sad thoughts lingering in the background.
masking every step, blending in
but no matter how hard i try
i still find myself spilling my guts, with this pen to this paper
telling it things i wouldn’t utter to a soul.
to be enough i tell myself:
loose a little weight, buy some cuter clothes, be anything but you because you will Never be enough
honestly speaking:
sometimes i’d be happier being anyone but myself
