i don’t know how i got here

i can’t even pick an outfit, style my hair, or order a meal

without thinking about your approval

your passive aggressive remarks

a simple dagger to my chest

making me question every step, every word, every sentence.

what would you do?

what would you think?

for once i want to question: what do I think? what do i want?

with my answer not being clouded by your constant remarks

but how i can blame you for my own codependency?